Vile heat That unforgotten scene I don't belong here I'm lost in time Intentional or not It feeds me what I fear I recognize what's happening and try to shake it clear But once I've seen the place Sometimes it will stay Certain shapes are just so strong they'll damage anyway When the mind's afloat I should know what's coming Thoughts go back to the past Things I'd rather leave Memories that haunt, hurt or shame All the same and more Flashes of subjects I lament or hate Words that I've spoken or actions I've made Randomize Or focused images The fog of chaos An astral wall So why's it have to be The bad over the good Can't I just see the positive No, that takes conscious thought Or helpful triggering from elsewhere Even those that I've not taken part From other stories that left a mark Relax and then await It will self-mutilate Rarely the happiness of life