(Today, you are who you are today, see?) Yeah
(You're still me, but you're a newer version)
(Myself ten years from now)
(It's so far away, it's almost impossible to imagine) I know
(Am I alone or is there a wonderful person next to me?)
Yeah
The shrooms hit 'til it's rainbow road
I grew sick of the same old jokes
And moved quick where the angels roam
They won't save your soul
Flip the world watch 'em fall through their halo holes
We bruise skin, fused in contusion art
Short fuse interviews to renew the scars
They love you when you're new but they'll soon depart
I stayed hunted by the gloom, you assumed the part
Fuchsia brushstrokes paint the skies with their love notes
Beauty minutiae petunias bloom from a cut throat
A million lights at night go in a sequence
Did I really live this life or did I dream it?
I don't want to be here
(Do your best, do your best)
But I don't want to leave yet (I can't remember)
(Don't you lose, don't you lose) Yeah
(Me, me, me)
I go Romero, so feral when I bear it all
I'll skin my enemies and stretch it out like Harold
Narrow arrows thrown at my apparel
Throne of Blood & Marrow
Crows above a scarecrow
Made of straw men arguments and table salt
Major flaws cut me open like a table saw
Saw my inner demons thinking that they're made of God
Solemn bits and pieces sink into Venetian skies
I feel alive in the moment between dreams and strife
The words grow from my bones 'til they're needle-like
Porcupine spine dying at the speed of light
Days from a normal life aged like California wine
Trapped in a maze like I'm Coraline
Unamazed mortified unfazed by the thorazine
Lord of Flies head on a stake that you glorified
If you're scared to know yourself this is horrifying
The same me it's just more refined
In a grave deep where the orchids lie
Orcas die inside me every time I sing a whale song
Seattle rain became a hailstorm, yeah
I don't wanna leave yet but I don't wanna be here
Everything I love will be swallowed in the ether
I don't wanna leave yet but I don't wanna be here
Everything I love will be swallowed in the ether
I don't wanna leave yet but I don't wanna be here
Everything I love will be swallowed in the ether
I don't wanna leave yet but I don't wanna be here
Everything I love will be swallowed in the ether
(In your time I'm no longer here but)
(I am here today)
(And I'll always be cheering for you, right here)
(Cheering for you)
(My only self)