I watched my grandfather smoke himself to death
And I know my daddy still copes with a cigarette
I guess it ain't suicide
When you do it in slow motion
I guess that's just life
So help me my lover I need some of your therapy
The demons been dealt down the trunk of my family tree
She said your head is disconnected from your heart
And just cause you're in pain don't make this art
If you're so smart
Why don't you figure out happiness
Are you really a masochist
Like me
Maybe you aren't such a Bonafide genius
Cause you still walk between us
In this fever dream
I watch my mother nearly work herself six feet deep
She did what she needed so we could eat
I'm breaking the cycle
I'm going to make it out of this nine to five
She said child
If you're so smart
Why don't you figure out happiness
Are you really a masochist
Like me
Maybe you aren't such a Bonafide genius
Cause you still walk between us
In this fever dream
I'm not a lover
I'm just a shill for human decency
I believe in charity
But I'm living in poverty
So anything to get me some sweet serotonin release
I am a martyr
But survival is my core belief
So will you stand by me
In my self-righteous solidarity
Or are you too busy obsessed with your complexity
If you're so smart figure out happiness
Are you really a narcissist
Maybe you aren't
Such a Bonafide genius
Cause you still walk between us
If you're so smart
Why don't you figure out happiness
Are you really a masochist
And maybe you aren't some modern-day Jesus
Cause you're still right here with us
If you're so wise
Why do you come off so passionless
My money's under the mattress
You can take it and leave
It's just a fever dream
It's just a fever dream
It's just a fever