I'm filling in my calendar Every hour with stuff to do If I can't stop to think of it I won't have time for missing you I haven't called up my family I'm avoiding my oldest friends Maybe I'll just make some new ones So I don't have to pretend i'm happy alone at the party again I don't know what I'm supposed to do I can't hate you And trust me, I've tried to How long is this supposed to take? Cause I love you and I need that to change Maybe it was destructive To go catch a crush I built this up into something That it never was But if my memory serves me Like my self worth rarely does This started just like the ending Trying to play it cool enough and leaving with an awkward hug I don't know what I'm supposed to do I can't hate you And trust me, I've tried to How long is this supposed to take? Cause I love you and I need that to change We joked that this would be easier For whoever cared less I guess that makes me the loser But I'm trying my best I don't know what I'm supposed to do I can't hate you And trust me, I've tried to How long is this supposed to take? Cause I love you I don't want that to change I need it to change