I'm a non-fiction writer in a made up world
Met a friend when I was twelve who became my girl
Got my headphones tangled
With my heart strings mangled up
This our thing hope that they uncurl
Nobody told me that a lesson learned
Is that a fire from afar isn't a threat to you unless it burns
So if you touch it, then it's your fault
Questioning that last call
Happy hour half off
Now I think it might have played right
Now I'm trying to stay private
A'int got nothing to say about it
I'm not a drifter, I'm a recluse
I'm the boy who cried wolf and then regretted being rescued
This world is pretty fun when you're young
Then you grow and everyone you know turns numb
I'm an unloaded gun
Waiting on the sun
Thinking about today and what I've done
And I don't want to go outside
I only feel safe in here
Can't tell you just how much I've tried
To let go and escape my fear
I just want to stay inside
I'm afraid of the way that people make me feel
I just want to stay inside
Outside of my mind I never know whats real
I just want to stay inside
Now I can never fall asleep without a helper
A little gin and lime, mix it with some seltzer
Tell the voices in my head to take the night off
Let me get a little rest, no need for light talk
I feel crippled by consistent self resistance
I try to shake it off, it isn't an existence
World got me by the throat I can't do it on my own
The future and anxiety, ahead to the unknown
And all I wanna do is write a happy song
A party anthem for the audience to clap along
But I'm a tagalong
Mind is like a vagabond
Life's so boring everyday
I'm just getting dragged along
And all I wanna do is shut down
And all I wanna do is shut down
Can't handle even one more sound
Got a feeling that they'll always be around
And I don't want to go outside
I only feel safe in here
Can't tell you just how much I've tried
To let go and escape my fear
I just want to stay inside
I'm afraid of the way that people make me feel
I just want to stay inside
Outside of my mind I never know whats real
I just want to stay inside
I just want to stay inside
I just want to stay inside