Tie the tourniquet tight Bathe my eyes in angel light I never believed a word I said was true I was abusing language to have power over you And I know I'm the devil, I know I'm a mess But I'm not a broken record, I learn my lessons fast Push that feeling down You'll scare them all off if you let it out But I don't want to not have anything to say Nothing in my body's telling me this is okay So I will find the part of you that I can love My blessing and my curse, I am what you are made of She painted me white Changed my bandages and stayed the night And I am here to learn all that she has to teach I will swim towards her lighthouse, always just out of reach After all I wanted nothing if not love The blessing and the curse I can't stop dreaming of