Call it what you want I see myself under water You call drowning swimming As you watch me swallow water Forget what I said I emerge wet and screaming bloody murder And you might say I make myself Into a marginal victim A baby crying hard until I get what I want But there is a friction between What I want and what I need And it is clear that I must scream So I paddle harder Pain exists in ways you inflict The breaks you can't solder Write about me Live in your own world of hurt Steal the lake from the water And I'll conflate the ones who Made me feel a part of their system Every screaming man gets what he wants And doesn't know the difference Between what he wants and thinks he needs And I always find myself to be The loving martyr I'm screaming like thunder