I can't hurt myself, anymore I can't shake this hell anymore I done tried, I done tried I done tried, I done tried But I can't shake the walls Can't shake em Will my will my will my will my Will my will my, soul Will my will my will my will my Will my will my, soul Will my will my will my will my Will my will my, soul Will my will my will my will my Will my will my, soul (Survive) Woke up laying next to my thoughts with my heart in my palm Stressing out over life, I need to be strong I am having trouble with who I am, I don't know what this is In and out of reality don't know what's real I've been confusing pleasure with righteous decisions It's either everything I want or God and religion I'm hurting beyond the surface, can't ask for forgiveness I feel terrible as fuck trying to renew prescriptions When all of my tattoos is written from scripture I'm hiding everything I am when you take my pictures Don't fucking judge I ain't a had coffee in five days Or smoked a cigarette since I through my pack away Will my will my will my will my Will my will my, soul Will my will my will my will my Will my will my, soul (Survive) Will my will my will my will my Will my will my, soul Will my will my will my will my Will my will my, soul (Survive) They told me life is a precious thing Well, who life is you talking about? Restless nights I haven't slept in hours I'm trying to practice self-love But I ain't mentally there To sacrifice my own well being for people ain't rare I put everybody before me, even when life isn't fair Tell me the value of life alone when nobody cares Why I am here? Why I am breathing? Why I am hurting? What am I feeling? Do I deserve it, Nah It's so hard for me to sympathize with socializers Feel like I'm socializing with a synthesizer They say the world needs ya power is what I been told Being so self absorbent, that shit getting old I can't just brush what happened to me right under the rug I gotta open up more, I don't know who I might save Man, I eat from the tree of life ain't no fucking around I stopped drinking on the couch to raise the bar up now Put your chin up in the sky, can you feel it now? Close your eyes and beat your chest, you the hear that sound? Ain't no chairs left in my way for my dream to sit down The only gamble that I take is my stake in the ground Let all the cameras flash Let em catch up to my ass Because I finally understand who I am now