I've been trying not to think about it, I can't help it

I know you don't wanna hear from me, but I am selfish
It kills me inside you can drink on Friday nights
Not even pick up the phone
It amazes me you move on so easily
From someone that you once called home
I wish you had enough discipline for the both of us
Just because I don't know how to turn off the way I feel
I know you always fell out love so damn easily
But honestly, I don't think you ever had something real
Until you met me, drinks in New York city
Ooh, you looked so pretty
Think I fell in love before I even knew your birthday
Kissed you on our first date
Somehow, I knew someday
This would hurt 'cause I could never let you go
Oh, I'll spend my whole life
Missing a part of me, part of me
Oh, I'll spend my whole life
Hoping your heart is free, heart is free
I don't think that this is fair, but I'm still gonna ask it
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What if we're still meant to be? Crazier things have happened
It tears me apart you can have love in your heart
And not have to act on it, hmm
It erases me and everything I thought we'd be
Back when we gave our promise
I wish you had enough discipline for the both of us
Just because I don't know how to turn off the way I feel
I know you always fell out love so damn easily
But honestly, I don't think you ever had something real
Until you met me, drinks in New York city
Ooh, you looked so pretty
Think I fell in love before I even knew your birthday
Kissed you on our first date
Somehow, I knew someday
This would hurt 'cause I could never let you go
Do you not dream of me?
'Cause I have visions in my sleep
I can't never find my peace now

Do you wake up alone?
Feel an aching in your bones
Or are you happy without me now?
The first time that you told me you thought that you loved me
That bar in the city, I thought you were drunk
But I knew deep down that you meant it
Wish that I had said it, I was scared to let it happen
But it happened and now I cannot forget it
Oh, I'll spend my whole life
Missing a part of me, part of me
Oh, I'll spend my whole life
Hoping your heart is free, heart is free