Oh my darlin'
Look what you're doing
To my complexion
And if you don't believe me
Just come right over here
And look at my reflection
Oh I ask you, politely
If I could stay
Please forgive me, my past lovers
Made me unsure 'bout my body
To this day
I'm afraid to lie too closely
Let alone to hold you tight
I'm afraid to even touch you sometimes
But you tell me "it's alright"
It's alright
Cause you're different to them
Cause you know you're lovely
And you're nice
And you're hardly narcissistic, at all
And we could just get outta here
Take two flights
And not tell anyone at all
We could just have a
Suicide party
In the end it's gonna be me and you
Aw babe we'll have a
Suicide party
Wherever you go you better take me too...
And maybe it's just my paranoia talkin'
And indeed it's all in my head
And maybe it's just somethin' that's gonna haunt me
'Til I find the right combination
Of medication
And I'm sure you're not mistaken
There's really nothing going on
Behind closed doors
Cause if I'm honest?
I'm sort of an, uninteresting person at my core
But aren't we all?
I'm sorry for what I look like
I'm sorry to make you wait
I'm sorry I haven't changed at all
But I'm tryin' for goodness sake!
And I'm-a hopin' and prayin'
That one day I'm gonna be just like you!
But until then I'm just gonna sit around
Paint my nails and do whatever else, superficial
That I can do
And maybe then I won't have to sing them ol' gender dysphoria blues...
And maybe then we won't even have to have a
Suicide party
In the end it's gonna be alright
Aw babe, we'll have a
Suicide party
And you can stay at mine tonight...
Well come on let's have a
Suicide party
In the end it's gonna be me and you
Aw babe we'll have a
Suicide party
Wherever you go you better take me too...