Decaying walls of an empty home Mold and mildew cover the walls of my soul Am I staring at nothing Begging for sleep Always begging for silence Something digs into my veins Tearing at my heart it's in my brain Telling me I'll never be okay It digs in deep it never goes away I can't escape These thoughts in my mind I know I'm not the only one I'll face my fears all on my own I don't think I'm able to turn this around I let it build up inside me I'm rising up just to fall to the ground Fall to the ground I descend into the darkness Fall to the ground There is no light left inside us If I If I could start over I would open my heart And show you the the things that even I can't see If I could pick up the pieces of what's left of me I'm lying to myself when I'm pretending I'm okay This rotten structure that I've called a life Ferments and Festers while I sit here and wait to die I can feel it inside me Rotting my insides Turning my mind into black What will it take me until I snap I can't take all the silence I am afraid there's no Turing back If I could start over I would open my heart If I could start over I would open my heart And show you the the things that even I can't see If I could pick up the pieces of what's left of me I'm lying to myself when I'm pretending I'm okay In my mind there's is violence I can't all the silence I can feel it inside me Rotting my insides Turning my mind into black What will it take me until I snap I can't take all the silence I am afraid there's no Turning back