I'm a fucking joke to you and I couldn't Be anymore clear with the words I said Promised I would bleed for you but you wouldn't And nothing hurts worse than you in my head I remember when We were falling hard like a shooting star Let your gravity pull me in Fell apart as fast, like a chain reaction And I lose the orbit again I need time to think, I need another drink A blackout to swallow me whole Another heart attack, couldn't take it back And now I know I'm a mess, I'm falling apart I know we can't get back to the start Cause if we could, don't say we should Cause I can't fix this goddamn broken heart I don't want to hear about you In a backseat, trading band tees With somebody else when it ain't me You never meant the things you said Like "it's us forever" and "we'll die together" I'm sick of telling all my friends I'm fine I'm sick of seeing your face online I'm sick of wonderin' when I'll be okay, okay I still wonder if you're alright If you ever lose sleep at night If you ever think about the life we used to have I'm a mess, I'm falling apart I know we can't get back to the start Cause if we could, don't say that we should Cause I can't fix this goddamn broken heart And you won't get out of my head Now I can't sleep, anxiety keeps me awake Now I overthink everything But you don't need to, I'm a fucking joke to you I'm a mess, I'm falling apart I know we can't get back to the start Cause if we could, don't say we should Cause I can't fix this goddamn broken heart I'm a mess, I'm falling apart I know we can't get back to the start Cause if we could, don't say that we should Cause I can't fix this goddamn broken heart And if we could, don't say we should Cause I can't fix this goddamn broken heart