It adds up spending a lifetime chasing shadows around
Trying to change where the sun comes from
Tracking dots on a screen, that could just be birds
Or some one or thing that wants to come in to your home
And live there instead of you
You've got panic in your eyes, and in your mind
Built like the columns in the sky you made for us all to climb on
But that all got pulled down, and you had to watch it
Digging more holes to pay for your principles.
That just get filled up, it got too much to take in
Is this what you thought it would be, wanted it to be?
Made it all up in your mind about it, Is this where you thought it would go?
One too many times taken away without anybody caring
It was all too early alone in your hotel room
Letting that broken heart guide you
It's only showing you more of what you've been having
Behind your door on the 33rd story
The only friends on your side are the birds on your window
Not the ones that want to take everything you've made and use it for their own
And tell you nothing you wanted to make made sense
Do you want to tear the world apart or the one inside of you
Is this what you thought it would be, wanted it to be?
Made it all up in your mind about it, Is this where you thought it would go?
The interchange, the currents on your fingernails
The energy in the sky where everyone can see
Traced over and over above the trees and inside of them
The birds that fly free and the ones that stay
They're made the same, but what makes them brave?
I think it's struggle, pacing over above the trees and on them
The towers, the gravity of it
The walls that get built out of necessity or to rip the world apart
And make a space by cutting out the trees all around them
The burden of being connected, the risk of failure and no reward
Sit down, be slow, where else can you go?
It won't erase all the places you've come from
Is this what you thought it would be?
Cruel world, in the hands of so few, where everyone can be of use
You want gold? You can have it, dig in the ground, and question, ask questions
You're made of the same things. You're going into that same ground
Is this what you wanted it to be?
Giving 'em both barrels, whatever it takes, and picking up the pieces later
Fighting to come alive
Wanting to want to fix what's broke
A ghost living inside of broken rusty skin
This! is this the way you thought it would go?
Still good, mostly new
With a brilliant love to give inside, with nothing to hide
Dozens have failed, I dare you to try
Getting it all out, leaving it all behind
It's hard to believe it's killing you, but it's killing you
Is this what you thought it would be?