Let's level set, this isn't what we meant Before I say something that I'd come to regret Cause we want different things, you'd always say so And I never understood how you'd purport to know just what I want When I never did But I still don't And I never will Let's level set, it was the right decision Which I repeat to anyone who's bold enough to seek me out And get the closest thing to a straight answer As if these constant platitudes would somehow make this go down smooth And they never do It didn't matter And it never will And I'd never tell you just how to remember me Cause it felt selfish after everything we'd seen One more vacation that you never came back from Just gone away It drags me down It holds me back We can't deserve What we didn't earn We didn't earn