I'll start today making my way away Who says you have to wait to have anything And I know what you really want isn't just me That's what I wanted too but you fucked it up More than you can see I want to wake up dead Never feel a thing again And I won't be scared of it I just need to pretend And I'm not even sure if I'm pushing or falling away Out of your arms that held on too loose to me 'Cause the words that come out of your mouth Are a mole on my skin And right now I bet you regret ever letting me in I want to wake up dead Never feel a thing again And I won't be scared of it 'Cause everything is just pretend I think I want you to know All the places that I'd rather go Than be with someone who understands how I feel And it hurts that you're so much like me And I guess that's why I think we should be As far apart as can be