I've been sitting in my empty apartment Staring at the red stain on the carpet There's a monster in me and I fed it Chasing after the dream with bad credit And I don't wanna go outside, there's nothing for me there I just wanna stay inside, I'd feel safer And I feel so ashamed as I circle the drain Friends don't call Family don't care In my void of endless despair All I do is bleach my hair And hope that they don't notice the cracks under the surface And the look on my face And I feel so ashamed as I circle the drain