Was about to fall back, will you catch my fall?
Cause I can't wait, I wanna know
I can't stay, eyes on road
I don't know where my life gonna go
Can't open up
Hiding for long enough
Can't hold on to nothing
Can't open up
Hiding for long enough
Can't hold on to nothing
Isolated and talking to bedroom walls
I been in my head and ignoring like every call
This voice in me winning, I'm heavy with the withdrawal
It tells me I'm better off just never expressing thoughts
Group chat venting, my friends ain't helping at all
Hanging by a thread, I cannot tell if I'll fall
I never tell 'em what's wrong, it's always hell in the fall
I put on a hat and fake it, it's always stealth in these songs
I'm Bill Murray in '93
On the ground, dog, Punxsutawney as far as the eyes can see
Me and semblance of an okay day play hide & seek
It hasn't been kind to me, I never got time to breathe
Nothing else I love is really causing a spark
Come to think of it, it was all foggy to start
Tryna thug out the pain is the cause of my art
But I'm one more "be a man" from just falling apart
It worsens, but I move urgent
Blind to the hits, you would think that I Earthbend
Lord knows I'm hurting, close to the curtains
But I can't feel if you ask the right person
Like "shut up and handle, you black and a man too"
I done lost count of what they said I can't do
Show no emotion, lash out cause that's cool,
Anything to deviate from this has been canceled
Ever since 10 I ain't really been the same
Keep a Poker Face, Stefani would be ashamed
Butterfly in me tryna break out of her cage
Deep down, I pray that her wings don't decay
It's just been a hard pill to swallow with my pride
Every look outside, I just see the reason why
Really need shelter, a shoulder to cry
But 3 simple words have been keeping me deprived
And so I...
Can't open up
Hiding for long enough
Can't hold on to nothing
Can't open up
Hiding for long enough
Can't hold on to nothing
Too bright
I try hard just to do right
Hide my face, I'm so shy
My skin blue in the Moonlight
See my face? I might slip
They got the noose on too tight
Couple more seconds, ima lose sight
Still call for help, don't know who might
I ain't left my bed in days, I'm falling
My friends worried about me, they keep calling
Isolate from them, but hey, I'm honest
Hit decline and I go back to sleep
Can't open up
Hiding for long enough
Can't hold on to nothing
Can't open up
Hiding for long enough
Can't hold on to nothing