I never felt, my whole, alone Crippling all excuse, my will, divides And I never felt, the way to be And I never felt, my eyes to see My memories and pretend bad dreams Ten years gone by, as I beg on my knees And I never felt, the way to be And I never found, my eyes to see My own catastrophe I'm stuck in a rut God, I keep messing up And I can see the way you're looking at me I'm stuck in a rut And you're wondering where I'll be And I never felt the way to be (My own catastrophe) And I never found my eyes to see (My own catatsrophe) The so well deal is I'm waiting for my day (My own catatsrophe) The so well deal is I'm waiting for my day (My own catatsrophe)