When you were in hospital I couldn't stand the smell of the ward It hung in the hallways It clung to my clothing And as you went downhill fast All I knew to do Was wear my comfort sweater The one with the green and white stripes And after you died I fell upon the pavement I lay in the gutter And pray to god to finish me off It's been 4 years now I still choke up at TV families Sometimes I still feel like jumping in front of a bus Is there something inside Between my stomach and my rib cage There's something inside right behind by eyelids It's fear It's the fear of being all alone It's fear and it's anger It's regret and it's longing And fear Fear Fear