I've been struggling to fit in
For as long as I remember
And every time I tried
I felt like a pretender
Out of place in my own skin
Even when I've been accepted
Being buried in my thoughts
I fail to get connected
My head is like a chamber
That's dangerous to enter
My mind is my tormentor
I can't shake it off
I fear that I can't break free
From my unrelenting nemesis
Can't fight this demon deep inside of me
So I am falling victim to myself
I know I'm not like the others
But sometimes I wish I was
They're all friends and lovers
While I'm just cold and numb
I think I'm craving closeness
But I can't break this resistance
And nobody ever noticed
My eyes lost in the distance
My thoughts are like a virus
Destructive and desirous
Devouring me alive
And I can't shake them off
I fear that I can't break free
From my unrelenting nemesis
Can't fight this demon deep inside of me
So I am falling victim to myself
I'm hosting the enemy
The enemy
Sitting in my head
Sitting in my head
No remedy
No remedy
No I can't break free
Hosting the enemy
The enemy
Sitting in my head
Sitting in my head
No remedy
No remedy
'Cause I'm hosting my enemy
I know something is wrong with me
But I was born this way
It's taken control of me
And I can't help myself
Why am I lonely in company
In every single place
How can I fight an enemy
Who never shows their face
I fear that I can't break free
From my unrelenting nemesis
Can't fight this demon deep inside of me
So I am falling victim to myself
I'm hosting the enemy
The enemy
Sitting in my head
Sitting in my head
No remedy
No remedy
No I can't break free
Hosting the enemy
The enemy
Sitting in my head
Sitting in my head
No remedy
No remedy
'Cause I'm hosting my enemy