I don't know how to feel things small It's a tidal wave or nothing at all I can't believe in heaven now It's been hell on Earth for a second Okay, you win, I'll end my life Drive to the bridge just to overthink it I'll never jump, it's a crutch of mine Drive to the bridge just to stand there thinking My life stands still ♪ I need someone who can relate 'Cause I lost myself to a dream I had And I'd never give it all away But I miss feeling like a person 'Cause I read those things people have to say They make me feel like I'm not a person White little pills take it all away Drive to the bridge just to stop the thinking And I can't stand still ♪ Keep thinking 'bout how to fix my life I think that "when" is the bigger question 'Cause I don't know how I'll feel tonight Might make an impulsive decision I cut a piece out of my thigh Felt my heart go skydiving It got me high for a little while I still don't know what I was thinking I did it still Yeah, I did it still