You wouldn't have to lie to me if you were self-assured
You wear a mask and consider it your allure
I've been through this before
You go back on your word
And you walk out the door
I tell you it's absurd
Who cares about your complexion
You highlight your own imperfections
"Tell me you love me," you say
What is the use anyway?
You throw me around like a muppet
Upon my string, no interruption
You tell me, "I love you, just stay"
Yet you hold me up on these strings
You said, "break yourself clean in two
I'd do the same for you"
Beyond the ocean blue
I pray that we are through
Some fucking friend you are!
I start to fall apart
And still you watch
As you don't know just where to start
Wish all of this could work
We could keep what's on the surface
Save the depth until it's worth it
I need all the infighting to stop
You can look at me like I'm selfish
Is it so wrong to need some focus
I get your hearts are broken
But I'm losing family to time
In more ways than one
I know I sound pathetic
Poor Catie wants attention
I'm sorry for your loss
I can't value validation
I won't wait through conversations
For one short turn to talk
You should know it's not enough
You said, "break yourself clean in two
I'd do the same for you"
Beyond the ocean blue
I pray that we are through
Some fucking friend you are!
I start to fall apart
And still you watch
As you don't know just where to start