You wouldn't have to lie to me if you were self-assured You wear a mask and consider it your allure I've been through this before You go back on your word And you walk out the door I tell you it's absurd Who cares about your complexion You highlight your own imperfections "Tell me you love me," you say What is the use anyway? You throw me around like a muppet Upon my string, no interruption You tell me, "I love you, just stay" Yet you hold me up on these strings You said, "break yourself clean in two I'd do the same for you" Beyond the ocean blue I pray that we are through Some fucking friend you are! I start to fall apart And still you watch As you don't know just where to start Wish all of this could work We could keep what's on the surface Save the depth until it's worth it I need all the infighting to stop You can look at me like I'm selfish Is it so wrong to need some focus I get your hearts are broken But I'm losing family to time In more ways than one I know I sound pathetic Poor Catie wants attention I'm sorry for your loss I can't value validation I won't wait through conversations For one short turn to talk You should know it's not enough You said, "break yourself clean in two I'd do the same for you" Beyond the ocean blue I pray that we are through Some fucking friend you are! I start to fall apart And still you watch As you don't know just where to start