I am special I'm a special guy Tiny feelings Tiny impulses Kind of worthless how the time does fly When every hour I've watched you sit and cry I was placing orders like a weekend warrior I was worried when you wouldn't pick up the phone Sitting up in bed spitting all over myself, no tone in my head My head I've committed many heinous acts I have pondered what it would be like To have murdered all my closest friends I deserve you You deserve the truth Girls they are so fragile they don't know what I mean They don't know what it's like when I shoot up my feelings Life will take you over so I push it aside I don't want to live, I don't want to die I can sit inside and ponder what it was Like when I was seventeen and I didn't need this But I was never fragile, I was never aware the tone in my head My head So when you're sleeping in the summer heat I hope you're dreaming And you dream of me and all you're dreaming becomes a fever scene Until you're screaming to get out that dream