Before if i fucked up anything i only hurt me Id never hurt anyone but now there are real people My actions are fact and i can not stand it I cannot handle it I smoke to much weed And watch to much tv I always run out of cigarettes I lie about everything This used to be me but now its feeling stale and friendly And i hate what ive become But i never been so proud of what ive achieved And i steal from my friends This is how i will tell them But sometimes im broke And when i am ill do anything But its no excuse cause none of us have a thing Be you were all honest i self a grandiose my own bullshit Borrow money for food, and i spend it on booze An eat bread from the dumspter And use anything that i can use To block out my thoughts Quiet my brain I still jump when the pain comes And i hate what ive become But i never been so proud what ive achieved And i just want my parents to think that im clever And excuse my lifestyle but my lifestyle has become an excuse Formed out of habit And i just want my friends to know that ill never fuck them around again Cause people are everything And i sing these songs To sing up with the straglers And i sing these songs because nothing else matters And i sing these songs out of fury and fear And i sing these songs cause without them i wouldnt be here With you