Face down, down in my pillow I'm biting feathers to fight my terror
I've gone to thinkin' again about what
I've done and where I should have been
And I know that I'm only 25 and my mother says that my future's bright
But I can't stop thinking how I fucked it up and I can't turn back now
And I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to do when this feeling hits
I don't know how to breathe,
I don't know how to breather when this feeling hits
Face up, up to the ceiling,
I'm learning how to face the feeling of terror rising
In my lungs at where I've been and what I should have done
And I know that,
I'm only 26 and not every shot I fire's gonna hit on the target
But I'm learning how to screw it up and carry on anyhow
And I don't know what to do,
I still don't know what to do when this feeling hits
I'm learning how to breathe and I guess
I'll count to 10 when this feeling hits
And I've not got the time to feel
This panic 'cause you're spending my life
The world's burning on this perfect day,
Seas rising and winter's not the same and it's tempting to
Just give up now, live fast, die young, let them go to hell
But that's just what they want me to think – if I fight the tide then
I'm gonna sink so I'll breathe in and breathe out
Again think twice act nice and raise my voice to them
And I don't know what to do 'cause the
Problem's so much bigger than you and me
I'm often feeling doomed but don't mistake that feeling for apathy
And our uncles at Christmas dinner say that we are just too young,
And that we'll grow up one day as
Well and then we'll be just like them
And we won't see the price in a human
Life beyond a paycheck a week a mother or wife
We'll be scared of what we don't
Understand and we'll buy up big on this stolen land
There's a lot to be afraid of, if you've got a lot to lose
It's a hardworking delusion that all you
Earnt was you and I'm not gonna swallow it
'Cause it feels like giving in to the game laid out to me
Even if it's one I'd win