Searching for knowledge 'til I hit rock bottom
Looking for answers in bottoms of bottles
Irony is when you're lost they'll all follow
Sobriety's bitter-sweet hard pill to swallow
Consign tonights good mood from tomorrow
Head filled with poison, chest feeling hollow
Thicken the syrup, try drown all my sorrows
Dodging the tick from the time that I borrowed
Sipping weed smoothies out a schooner glass
I remember pouring Painstop in Üludag
Used to ride the train when we'd truant class
Leave the carriage filled with wood-stain and ruined glass
But time doesn't stop it keeps moving fast
Some things never change, depends who you ask
You're on thin ice when you start using shards
You can't change where you start, but you can choose your path
So you best choose wisely
Gone M.I.A like my name Pooh Shiesty
Disrespect, I don't take to kindly
Distant, yes, I got places I'm trying to be
Miss my friends man, I hate this anxiety
Got trust issues from people who lied to me
On my ones most the time, but that's fine with me
Raise the vibe in my mind 'til I find my peace
Lost some people don't know how to cope with it
I'd be lying if I said I was over it
Heartbroken, don't know how to process it
But I can't give up yet, that's what I owe to 'em
Smile on my face, but i'm grieving
Looks are deceiving, been fighting demons
Trying to heal but my scars just keep bleeding
I've been swimming with sharks in the deep end
Smile on my face, but i'm grieving
Looks are deceiving, been fighting demons
I'm trying to heal but my scars just keep bleeding
I've been swimming with sharks in the deep end
Most days I still wake up screaming
Back to the wall, gotta face these demons
Hard to sleep, but it feel like I'm dreaming
Holding some secrets can never repeat 'em
So let me put this into perspective
I know my worth, i'll go where i'm respected
Quick U-turn, changed the place I was headed
These days I wanna live life, fuck a death wish
Girl I've got the world in my fingertips
'Round the country they know who I am
These boys got the world in their fingertips
'Cos they're stuck to a pip, twirling globes in their hands
I don't pop benzos I know who I am
Broken since bro tied a rope on the xans
Lady Macbeth, I've got blood on my hands
They don't understand what made me who I am
Smile on my face but i'm grieving
Looks are deceiving, been fighting demons
I'm trying to heal but my scars just keep bleeding
I've been swimming with sharks in the deep end