Falling in the deep
Right on my blind side
When I couldn't see
And I don't think twice
I hear the violins
I'm one blow from losing my mind
I was born inside white walls
Imprisoned myself, give a damn what it might cost
Drawn to the flame, like a moth to a lightbulb
Down to my last thread, ooh that's a tight knot
Loose cannon
Too manic
Hi, this is my fault
Might be a fuse for a
Live ticking timebomb
Used to abuse
Yeah that might come as a slight shock
Dancing on a tightrope, knew that I might fall
Too many doors I didn't realize were open
Missed opportunities, silent when I should've just spoken
Know that I'm missing something
I can feel it tugging my sheets
These demons inside of my bed here disrupting my sleep
My soul's hurting, and this page is my shrink
My sole purpose turning blood into ink
Yeah who's got the wheel?
Cause I'm not the captain
Not the same person I was
Just a fraction
Falling in the deep
Right on my blind side
When I couldn't see
And I don't think twice
I hear the violins
I'm one blow from losing my mind
I know what I need but I can't escape
I feel it in my chest when it's getting late
I hear the violins
I'm one blow from losing my mind
God damn it, I was doing so good
Full of ammo
Then had to go and shoot myself in the foot
The assignment was understood
The execution was wrong
My mouth and mind never connect till its too late to withdraw
I never feel I need to open up
Mouth running, I already tried to sew it shut
Never let em know too much
It's why I put it all in pages
Skipped a lot of steps, now I'm trying to retrace it
Don't know where the trauma lives
Trying to address it right
When I was a kid, it jumped on
I just let it ride
Feelings, I just closeted
Emotions were jeopardized
Turned me to a novelist
Now it's what I specialize
Letting go of guilt created ego
Ego drove my friends to getting sick and letting me go
Where did I go wrong?
Hard to place the needle
Thought I was at home
Now I'm facing repo
Falling in the deep
Right on my blind side
When I couldn't see
And I don't think twice
I hear the violins
I'm one blow from losing my mind
I know what I need but I can't escape
I feel it in my chest when it's getting late
I hear the violins
I'm one blow from losing my mind