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I don't mean to offend you if we got history
But I eliminated some people I really didn't need, and
I don't mean to throw pity parties for sympathy
But this year's been the absolute worst, look what it did to me
I'm hitting dead ends
I faded with all of my best friends
The ones I needed to be lifting
It's crazy seeing what can change in a summer
But I ain't tripping, I'm so proud that I consider you brothers
I'm outgrowing this town, it's too cozy
Yeah my circle faded, no more ring around the rosie
I'm closing this chapter for good
And moving to a town where ain't nobody know me, I should
Another town where I'll be misundеrstood
Whoa, I'm on the brink of social suicide
Counting friends, I'm sick of losing minе
Spare me some serotonin, I'm too deprived
Sick of looking at my reflection like "Who am I?"
Yeah, I'm so lonely I could throw up
With people disappearing just as quickly as they show up
Don't think I wanna grow up
Sitting in my bed wishing that I never woke up
Somebody please show up
Look at my future, I'm selling out packed shows
Front to the back rows
Swimming in mad dough
Numbers that grow
Couple million in tax, no sweat
Indie catalog, owning my past flows
Still spit like I'm chewing tobacco
Hitting every city from Denver to Glasgow
Then I'm back home
Sell out Madison
Now my mom can have the garden of her dreams
Quit her job, relax and breathe
But am I sacrificing too much?
I'm so afraid to screw up
It's eating at my mind, now it's far beyond chewed up
Would you all hate me if I blew up?
Dime on my finger, I'm praying that I never lose her, but
Whoa, I'm on the brink of social suicide
Counting friends, I'm sick of losing mine
Spare me some serotonin, I'm too deprived
Sick of looking at my reflection like "Who am I?"
Yeah, I'm so lonely I could throw up
With people disappearing just as quickly as they show up
Don't think I wanna grow up
Sitting in my bed wishing that I never woke up
Somebody please show up
Sitting in my car until my phone dies
Staying up till 6 to write a verse until the sunrise
Running out of gas, and keeping track of both my front tires
Fill em with the air inside my head in case they run dry
So what if I'm insane?
I got some habits so unusual
Live with a perspective some would see as pure delusional
It's suitable for me, and Imma do this till it works or till I'm dead
That's undisputable
You can disagree at my funeral
Cause I won't live the life that you insist on
Get buried with the negativity I hit the switch on
I'm narrowing my clique, you're the stick the snake sits on
I'm doing this for kicks, wear it if the shoe fits on
Whoa, I'm on the brink of social suicide
Counting friends, I'm sick of losing mine
Spare me some serotonin, I'm too deprived
Sick of looking at my reflection like "Who am I?"
Yeah, I'm so lonely I could throw up
With people disappearing just as quickly as they show up
Don't think I wanna grow up
Sitting in my bed wishing that I never woke up
Nobody's gonna show up