A lot of days I sit at home and cry A lot of days I've been staying in bed Everywhere I go reminds me of her Bill Callahan singing "it's time to put God away" I know it's time to stop worshipping her To stop wanting her To stop missing her To stop thinking about her But I can't change my dreams at night So every morning I wake up with her on my mind Then it all starts again I'm so sad I'm despondent I'm so sad about losing her I'm so sad I'm despondent I'm so sad about losing her There are moments when I become paralyzed Thoughts of her can keep me from speaking Dream of her breath in my ear and I cry But everybody reminds me that I'm better off without her God she was cruel a lot of the time But when she was kind Oh when she'd smile When she called me honey My soul would surrender to her My heart and body were hers to use as she wanted I just wanted to be near her forever I'm so sad I'm despondent I'm so sad about losing her I'm so sad I'm despondent I'm so sad about losing her