And I'm all alone again, as another sleepless night is starting to set in. Countless upsetting thoughts creep into my head. I'm praying for an end. "She lied to you, they despise you, and everybody else hates you, just like I do." Maybe it's my own fault, for trying to be what they want. "You'll never be enough, you're just a worthless fuck, and it's about time that you just gave up." I'm not ready to grow up. It's getting hard just showing up. Maybe if I close my eyes just for tonight I'll forget everything they said. I won't pretend I'm someone that I have never been. I've given up on giving up. If I'm right or wrong, I don't give a fuck. I won't care if I'm alone. Why can't you see? I'll never be convinced this wasn't meant for me. Save it, I don't have the patience. Hold your breath until you choke on it. I don't have the patience. Every time I hear your voice, it's like poison to my conscience. What's it going to take to get through to you. I'm never going to be the way you want me to, so I'll just go, because we both know you want me to. And I'm all alone again, I'm clearing out my head. I'm ready to begin. I've given up on giving up. If I'm right or wrong, I don't give a fuck. I won't care if I'm alone. Why can't you see? I'll never be convinced this isn't meant for me.