All I can bear to say Shrinks a bit each day My head is full of rocks Disguising themselves as thoughts But they're not An educated mind Uneducated in life She beckons for a kiss But grabs my arm and twists And I miss it I won't exist for you anymore But how am I supposed to close this door I've opened for myself I'm too curious to leave, too worried to stay My expectations crumble more and more each day I can't stay alive for you anymore She presses on the glass Connection fading fast Then puts her hand in mine My uneducated mind Goes offline She gazes into my eyes My imagination flies The words have left my brain To find a way to say This is okay I can't keep up this act anymore But it's all I've ever known to be myself I'd love to be a human, I'd love to see me try Yet I melt in my chair as I turn off my mind I wish I wasn't me anymore