I'm lying in my bed trying to figure out how I feel
It's hard to tell when I know it's not real
But in time I'll see as I always do as usual
I'm shaking my head at the man upstairs
It's funny he says that he truly cares
Drink yourself to death I'll catch up soon
But until then ill be through
I'm crazy for contact
My eyes are glued to screens
It's too bad that man has no clue what I mean
But in time he'll realize when he dies
Things aren't what they seem
You sit on the laptop 10 hours a day
Waving your dick in the wind but that's okay
Sit on the floor and watch ESPN
While my life comes to an end
Keep talking and talking like a movie star
If you do it enough you might get the part
I hope you do so you go away
Then there may be brighter days
My apologies were never real
Not that you're aware
If you knew how I truly feel
You wouldn't stay there
Waiting for you to say
You're traveling afar
Oh that would be the day
And I hope you are
But I'll keep it in my head
In my bank of fantasies
Along with the horrible ones with you on your knees
On the floor whichever first I hope it hurts too much
In the bar on jam night
Illuminated by a phone light
I keep to myself as id usually like
You interrupt my headspace
With words of grace
Such as a punch in the face
My brain runs through scenarios that you'd
Be fond of probably not too
My body is a disguise
You can see it through my eyes
I'm just waiting for the perfect time
You have such a vocabulary
I'm so very impressed
Once you've said the first word I've heard all the rest
But I still listen and try not to respond but sometimes I really want to
And I'm so sick about it
I just wish you would fade
Out from my way preferably today
I'd be fine without you
What else could I say
You make it seem like it's a real fright
But I know its a lie it couldn't be anything else
I just want to knock your book off my shelf
I just wish you would try to be a real human sometimes or you could do the other thing that rhymes
And I'll end this song with a little parting verse that is dear to my heart
Actually I don't know what to say