It hurt so bad I couldn't even find the words to say I woke up that morning And I looked like shit And I could see it in your eyes you thought "I could never love something like this" You couldn't even bare to touch my skin Right after you fucked me in that hotel bed And I swear on my life I'll never even drive through White Marsh again Tell me, did I ever matter to you? And I'll tell you why I do the things I do And I can still smell the wine on your breath And I'll say it til the day I die You were the cause of my death But we'll go on without a word or a sound And I'll pretend like I never knew you at all So here we are Here we are Here we are Living in radio silence You drove me home in your beat down car You couldn't look, no you couldn't talk And just the night before We were singing at the top of our lungs Was it something I did? It was nothing, you said Oh But tell me, did I ever matter to you? And I'll tell you why I do the things I do And I can still smell the wine on your breath And I'll say it til the day I die You were the cause of my death But we'll go on without a word or a sound And I'll pretend like I never knew you at all So here we are Here we are Here we are Living in radio silence And I'm so ashamed That I ever let you get to me this way I'm ashamed to say that still to this day I haven't tried to bleach the stains Oh, I'm so ashamed Cause you Oh, you You, I could never hate But we'll go on without a word or a sound And I'll pretend I never knew you at all So here we are Here we are Here we are Living in radio