What if I'm not in love What if I'm not in love With the way that I'm livin' When do I have to give in My nerves tend to spread thin Like butter baby just like butter baby Not like the others baby not like the others baby I'm people watching just to see if people watching I'm overthinking wondering what you are thinking You missed the sunset while you were blinking All the regret is bound to sink in I pick at the seams and pick at the scabs Till they turn to scars but whose keeping tabs on me Who's keeping tabs on me I am When no one else was I was When no one else is I am When no one else can I am I am I'm an eldest daughter what do you know Carry mother's instincts wherever I go Still tryna learn how to let things flow Yeah I might have a girls night by myself tonight Take some pictures in a dress that fits me tight Put some green on paper to get my mind right Yeah Maybe I am more productive by my lonesome If you got serotonin can you loan some Just planting seeds so I grow some If I say it I will do it Who's getting me through it I am When no one else was I was When no one else is I am When no one else can I am I am