And every time you come to see my face I draw my blanket up to hide away I'm busy mourning for some holidays I couldn't recall for diversity's sake What happens if I don't bother? 'Cause what good does it to call you? Am I a terrible human If I leave the pleasantries at the door? I wanna leave you in the night when there's no light I never meant to cause you such despair I wanna leave you in the night, is that alright? 'Cause this is me slowly learning to share What if you go forgetting all the moments lost? You won't remember half of what I've shown So I'd rather have nothing at all ♪ And every time you come to see my face I dress myself up in pale white and grey I lived to die while I was dying to live But I couldn't have called like somebody in need I wanna leave you in the night when there's no light I never meant to cause you such despair I wanna leave you in the night, is that alright? 'Cause this is me slowly learning to share