My sins and vices
Lay in a puddle of my blood
I miss the new me
Disguise the poison with the love
I'm sick of all of this
Just wanna feel like myself
Don't know who to call right now
Singing to myself a cry for help
You wouldn't understand
But it's okay I don't blame you
It's so damn complicated
I just hope you know I care for you
And if I have to leave one day
Promise you it will all be all okay
If I have to leave one day
Don't stay awake just pray
I'm tryna find my way to you
But these skies they feel so blue
I know that it's all up in my mind
I feel confined by wasted time
Tryna live with all this pain
When I should be tryna change
Know that it's all up in my mind
Feeding me lies from time to time
I keep giving my all
Wake up still depressed from the night before
Tried giving you my heart I think I need it more
Call me selfish and that I'm just a piece of shit
It doesn't matter in the end when the lights get dim
You never needed me the way I needed you
Don't wanna look in your eyes because it's all see through
Popping up by surprise acting like we're still cool
I still wanna die baby it's not nothing new
Promise I wouldn't cry anymore but it's all I do yeah it's all I do
Geronimo I'm standing over the edge again
Don't wanna go and everyone says I'm a pessimist
I can't help it it's all I'm good at and ever known
I'm okay where I'm at right now
I don't think that I'm coming home
I'm tryna find my way to you
But these skies they feel so blue
I know that it's all up in my mind
I feel confined by wasted time
Tryna live with all this pain
When I should be tryna change
Know that it's all up in my mind
Feeding me lies from time to time