Posted at the park till 6 then it's dark
I don't trust my own homies so I can't tell em apart
Although it's run it's course, and I don't feel no remorse
I felt the trust fall through the holes in shopping carts
Like I'm playing tags with ghosts in past
Who knew I'd last
Past 25, without facing life
I can't be mad
Cause niggas ain't real with themselves, now I'm a Dad
And I left the streets behind me, reflections in the glass
Shows a man who lived life so close to the chest
And was willing to risk it all till he had nothing left
Can't think less of me because I had charges of accessory
Then stared at the walls till I really saw the depth
What's next cause now I feel like I really faced it all
But God can show me different, if I'm too high then I'll fall
So I have to keep my self in check, as long as I got self respect
Then I can press decline when I see the streets call
I'm a brother of the struggle
When I came up out the rubble
I caught myself lacking
And I started seeing double
I got away from trouble
Then I started being humble
The devil saw my efforts
So he knocked me down a couple
Feet, till I was leaking
Then I almost cried defeat
Will die on my feet before I live down on my knees
This love, life, loyalty is all I really need
Till I come out the woodworks with some shit y'all didn't see
Is my mindset really the same cause as a child
I saw my parents fall apart and thought I was to blame
So then I got older, then became a little colder
Started gang bangin then I saw I really got a name
That puts fear in niggas hearts when I came around the corner
Set some dates up, had meetings with the coroner
Drinking at the mortuary, way back in January
Then my baby momma said who am I to carry
This child by myself, cause I went back to the streets
Fucked my homies sister, man I really couldn't see
The man that I'd become cause i fell for some pussy
I was living on the edge then I felt the devil push me
But I'm just a human who can really see his flaws and all
Can I really press decline when I see the streets call?
I grow and develop everyday, I ain't enough
Cause what can change a man who really dont give a fuck
I'm a brother of the struggle
When I came up out the rubble
I caught myself lacking
And I started seeing double
I got away from trouble
Then I started being humble
The devil saw my efforts
So he knocked me down a couple
Feet, till I was leaking
Then I almost cried defeat
Will die on my feet before I live down on my knees
This love, life, loyalty is all I really need
Till I come out the woodworks with some shit y'all didn't see
Lord don't let me die in vain, I'm still hungry
I survived too many times and I still know that you love me
I can never be too proud just to say that I was lucky
But I let my pride get in the way and it gets ugly
I know at times I can really show I'm human
And when I see the end of the road, feel like I'm ruined
You remind that there's always Gon be more for me to conquer
I lose all my emotions at times and see a monster
All these thoughts to myself while I'm sitting in a cell
I did too much dirt to go back so wish me well
I always felt remorse and I knew y'all couldn't tell
I was living life too much to ever see that I failed
Then I try to better myself so what I'm facing
I'll be a better man without any hesitation
The older that I get, I see manifestation
As a way to get the things that I need, no point in waiting
I'm a brother of the struggle
When I came up out the rubble
I caught myself lacking
And I started seeing double
I got away from trouble
Then I started being humble
The devil saw my efforts
So he knocked me down a couple
Feet, till I was leaking
Then I almost cried defeat
Will die on my feet before I live down on my knees
This love, life, loyalty is all I really need
Till I come out the woodworks with some shit y'all didn't see