He's trying hard to keep control and lead the way He's finding all the perfect words to say to me I'm climbing stairs with only one thing on my mind To kick a habit of lost opportunity It's only natural to want what doesn't come I swiped away all of the pawns under my thumb But like the ending of a one act play The curtain closes and the actors run away and I'm (Chorus) Up against the wall Wondering why I came at all Yes I'm up against the wall Trying to disappear I look around and watch the world as it goes by Wondering, how small - how small am I? He makes a gesture to distract me from a thought He goes against most everything that I've been taught It's when you wake up and you can't go back to sleep It's when you wonder 'bout the company you keep It's when you wake up in the middle of your life You just can't cut it w/ the dull end of a knife - and I'm [sic] (Chorus) (Spoken) You know the way you're walkin' makes U seem larger than life [sic] As you turn the key to your door - you're turning me on And my mind spins HIGH above the world. That's the way I feel! It's only natural to want what doesn't come I swiped away all of the pawns under my thumb But like the ending of a one act play The curtain closes and the actors run away and I'm (Chorus) Trying to disappear Trying to disappear