Am I hurt, losing face?
'Cause honestly right now I don't trust the pain
Lost, or abandoned by grace?
I know I've been through it all, but this doesn't feel the same
I don't want to know how any of this ends
I'm more afraid of anticipating the fight
I'd rather burn smoke signals for all of my friends
Who may be feeling this tonight
'Cause I've not seen a canyon river dry
Or hidden waterfalls cry
There will always be so many things out of view
But I've seen paintings by Van Gogh
And cherry blossoms grow in rows
And I've felt close to a beating heart or two
There's always something strange about how I
Could never see it all before I die
Yet the stars keeps calling me by name
I'd never touch these billion lights
I'll admire them throughout my life
And that's enough for me to claim
Feels like I'm a stranger in such a familiar place
I don't mind, it's easy to leave without a trace
But I'll send you signals to let you know that things are just okay
And before you know we'll be back to tessellate
I've never seen the sun from the desert rise
Or northern lights painting skies
I've never dived into the blue unknown
But I sang a melody near the creek
With fire burning, winds repeat
Their echoes made me feel less alone
Well as this whole world goes to shit
All the pessimistic nihilists
Say, "Didn't I tell you so, friend?"
When we're all in the same boat
We keep it all afloat
And that's how this whole thing really ends
I'm afraid to tell you
When I'm losing the fight
I just hope you catch my smoke signal tonight