My back starting to hurt me
I'm close to 30
Fall in love but can't stay in it I'm gettin worried
WellHigh as fuck dealing with all the emotions I buried
Never been too much in a hurry
But I can see how some of my decisions might hurt me
I been at it for minute verified without a check
I been hitting goals while accumulating debt
Adding to my stress
Still give it my best
Paint and sip some tea while reminiscing my wins
When I shut it down you best come up with my ends
Stay prayed up as I repent my sins
God tired of my ass ima do it again
If you want it you can own it but you gotta stay focused
Don't be the last to grab a glass and we just finished up toasting
I don't take pics, I'm selfish and I hate sharing moments
Moms think my smile fucked up but my teeth is just golden
Wild times when the wild times are over
Bet I got the scarves to prove it
Don't you worry bout my heart
If you were here then you knew it
On the music tip I'm different
But I never could prove it
To busy building tables for us
I missed out on the music
No lie
Im gettin old
And im prolly lil jaded now
Nip it in the bud
Let 'em know that I ain't playin now
Vetted fo she thirty
That's a different kinda lady now
Know they gone respect it
When you show em you can hold it down
And I always did
Before I shoulda been
I always been a grown ass kid
Ask t
We was doin always grown ass shit
It's all on me?
Ight cool
How I always lived
Wasn't til now I understand how fucked up alla that is
It birthed overachieving, hyper independent, overreacting, hyper analytical, gangsta
I hope one day y'all find a way to thank her
But I know that you won't
Cuz to do that you'd have to see her
And I know that you don't
My doubt inbedded cuz I seen all of this shit. My mom
The fakest love
The worship and the curse come from the same tongue
Created tribe but I grow more from all the days I'm alone
Found my purpose on a nights I wondered why I was born
Trauma took a lotta of memories no lie that shit gone
Or maybe I'm just gettin old it's time to leave em alone
Guess I'll pave the way now
I'm the elder on the porch affirmin all the crooked smiles
I'm the aunty puttin Applecider in ya teas now
Swearin onions on ya feet gone always get that fever down
Damn my gma would be proud
Got my mama trippin out
Time repeats itself and so do we I think I get it now
But it's beautiful
So I find wisdom in my wrinkles
And I'll see good in the greys
At least I made it here to see this day