How much pressure does it take to make a fucking diamond break
Filling up a resume with all the situations where I ruined everything
But every day a struggle just to get up be productive
So seductive just to get reduced to nothing
I just wanna double down on words unspoken
Love to be destructive self-sabotaging
Crawling out my coffin with my chest all hollowed out
I'm falling down crawling on the ground
Just to see the people that pretend to love me throwing dirt on top
Getting harder just to say goodbye
I've been rotting yet I'm still alive
Everybody asking yes I'm fine
But it's getting hard to keep that lie
Getting harder just to say goodbye
I've been rotting yet I'm still alive
Everybody asking yes I'm fine
But it's getting hard to keep that lie
Done pretending that I'm something
Something worth loving
Something you can put your trust in
Something that just doesn't make you sick
See your hair it's falling out in clumps
Should've known those scars they turn to bumps
Radiation sickness ain't enough
I deserve a punishment for happy thoughts
I can't take it anymore
Getting harder just to say goodbye
I've been rotting yet I'm still alive
Everybody asking yes I'm fine
But it's getting hard to keep that lie
Getting harder just to say goodbye
I've been rotting yet I'm still alive
Everybody asking yes I'm fine
But it's getting hard to keep that lie