I should have known I can't hide the pain It's unavoidable, what a shame Confused and scared, where do we go from here My sense of self rapidly collapses No longer grounded time elapses It's uncontrollable But did I ever have a say Smothering, I'm smothering I don't know what to do I'm losing my grip Knowing I've lived a lie Knowing I've lived a lie To see Is to fear Troubled eyes Wander through thoughts It unwinds Now it's clear I was never meant to be here To see Is to fear Troubled eyes Wander through thoughts It unwinds Now it's clear I was never meant to be here Who is this which stands before me now An image of a man who once was It ripples, waves now violent, they disrupt It echoes a sentiment long lost Who are you Who are you Have you found out yet Will the answer ever satisfy So now I'm left out, roaming through here Not a single fibril, a single shred of hope So empty, this space I've learned to fear The silence becomes deafening Smothering, I'm smothering I don't know what to do I'm losing my grip Knowing I've lived a lie Knowing I've lived a lie To see Is to fear Troubled eyes Wander through thoughts It unwinds Now it's clear I was never meant to be here To see Is to fear Troubled eyes Wander through thoughts It unwinds Now it's clear I wasn ever meant to be here