I can't keep coming up with more excuses I'll just admit I'm always wrong and completely useless Cause when it comes to real responsibility I will let everyone down including me I'll prove once again I haven't changed a bit Despite changing my lifestyle the thought just sits Where I can't ever seem to reach closure I wish I knew why I'm still so weak and never sober I just phase out of my own reality The time I spend alone means everything to me But at the same time it's what's tearing me a part I wish the reality of life wasn't so dark By now you can see I don't have a grasp on my own stability