I just need out of my routine To regain strength In pursuing my dream But it keeps me awake Sleep is just more time to waste Cause I feel meaningless In every move I make These thoughts are never Going to be easy to shake Even though I've written it out So many times I don't know what Memories were mine Cause it never was my situation It was just a pathetic default destination That I thought was my truth But I was so young I didn't know what to do So I sat around and watched A toxic family grow In a town I grew up in You know how that goes I wasted what was supposed To be the best years of my life For empty rooms and Staying up all night But I'll continue my fight Till I feel at least A little bit alright Cause it never was my situation It was just a pathetic default destination That I thought was my truth But I was so young I didn't know what to do So I sat around and watched A toxic family grow In a town I grew up in You know how that goes