I stay in bed for days on end Wondering if I'm worth the trouble of being a friend Cause I just seem To always say the same things About all the times I'm embarrassing And continue to talk In third person You told me you were always so certain That I would never take the time to totally relax I'll just waste my life on the relapse I hate that it will always cross my mind Tearing me apart at any given time As I sit in silence The feeling is overwhelming I'll never be strong enough To be the one who's helping I hate that it will always cross my mind Tearing me apart at any given time And I surrender eternally for some reason Cause I feel so lost with nothing to believe in I wish I could fulfill it myself But the only thing I create is hell A debby downer spliffany roach That resents every line he should've never wrote And tries to find meaning in his pathetic life Letting all my fears keep me up at night