I know I'm always misleading I'm only letting myself feel more defeated But ever since I tried to let it all go Anger and frustration's all I show I'm scaring everyone I love away You don't know how much it means for you to stay How you don't look at me that way And accept my flaws every single day I'm sorry for letting these thoughts back in And it doesn't seem like my change will ever happen I don't know how to deal with myself when I'm like this Every problem I have is an existential Crisis, and I gotta fucking chill out before I'm alone again I hope I can stay this happy in the end But it's so fickle and never keeps its word I feel like I'm just always getting worse I'm scaring everyone I love away You don't know how much it means for you to stay How you don't look at me that way And accept my flaws every single day I'm sorry for letting these thoughts back in And it doesn't seem like my change will ever happen