My heart beats, my lungs breathe
And yet I'm drowning
Underneath the sea
My eyes glance, my mouth speaks
And yet I'm drowning
Right inside of me
Don't you know that I am hurt?
Can't you see me fade away?
The monsters got a hold of me
And I'm afraid they're here to stay
Don't you know that I am hurt?
Can't you see me fade away?
The monsters got a hold of me
And I am not, I am not okay
When I look into the mirror
I see an unfamiliar face
Those tattoos are clearly mine
But I can't feel myself
I make a cut and I can breathe again
Until the shame creeps in
I'm too weak
I'm too dumb
I'm too shy
God knows why
Why am I so complicated?
Don't you know that I am hurt?
Can't you see me fade away?
The monsters got a hold of me
And I'm afraid they're here to stay
Don't you know that I am hurt?
Can't you see me fade away?
The monsters got a hold of me
And I am not, I am not okay
My heart beats, my lungs breathe
And yet I'm drowning
Underneath the sea
My eyes glance, my mouth speaks
But noone sees the void inside of me
I scratch my arms until they bleed
Need to get this tension out of me
All I wanna do is sleep tonight
But my thoughts run deep
I'm too fat
I'm too dumb
I'm too shy
God knows why
Why is life so complicated?
I text you
"Sorry I can't come tonight"
And another tie gets severed
When all I want to say is
Give me a call
Maybe come over
Let's talk or even sit in silence
I don't wanna be alone tonight
I just can't be on my own tonight
I am not okay
All I wanna say is
No, I'm not okay!
Listen to me
I don't live, I don't die
I don't live, I survive
I am not okay
Go away
I am not okay
I am not okay
I fade away