"Honestly, I can't remember teen dreams All my (dumb ass) feelings and their meanings They seem too see-through to be true All the who's are there but the whys are unclear" Thought my steps were clever Too young to know about forever You say you don't want to lose me, but in fact you wished you never had me My blurred eyes did not see the lie like it was meant to be Close your eyes and fall asleep, I feel your cold my dear bride, You showed me your darkest side, but could you still hold me tonight? Your company made me feel the way I wanted to feel But after all I wasn't good enough I didn't appeal Though it was an illusion, it seemed so real to me (I) had to burn down my safe spot (to) escape from self-made misery Came closer to the point where my mind was shed Now I question the moves I made and the words I said Since it's no pain no gain thanks for the gift you gave me Showed me the disappointments I'm now able to foresee You had put me in my place and I didn't know where to stand Still I feel no thrill and I still believe that life is ill