My blood pressure drops as the high wears off
My back slides down the wall
I know it wasn't worth it no I wasn't satisfied
I'm playing games with death
You and I both know that when I say I'm sorry
It doesn't mean a thing
I know that I fucked up I know that this is painful
I mean it when I say I want to change
And right now I can't help but feeling
Like I'm just saying this because I'm dope sick
But I have to stop getting high before I fucking die
No reservations this time
I just wanted to get high I didn't give a shit for my own safety
But I guess it didn't matter with how suicidal I've been lately
Cause I'm picking little bits of crystal meth out of my carpet
That my plug spilled while we were smoking and snorting it in desperation
So as not to have to come down
I can't believe myself
And right now I can't help but feeling
Like I'm just saying this because I'm dope sick
But I don't know what the fuck I'm doing
I don't want to die like this
And sometimes I still feel hopeless
But I've been listening to my friends
I have to stop getting high before I fucking die
No reservations this time